I really don’t know where to start this letter. Or do I really have plans of giving this to you? I just felt that there is something missing in our relationship. I don’t know what it is. I don’t know if you feel it too. Maybe we are too busy to stop and think of things for a while. We are almost together for a year. We will soon have our anniversary next month but it seems that nothing had changed since the day we met. I could hardly remember the day we officially became a couple. I couldn’t also remember a time when you did something special for me. I hate to admit it but it seems like you are taking for granted this relationship. I would always wonder, what do you think of me? Do you think of me as your girlfriend or just one of those faceless people around you? I’m not blaming you with what is happening to us. I admit that maybe I have my own faults too. But I need your help in knowing those, how can I improve if all I can hear from you is the words, “okay”, “you decide” or “I’m busy”. I’m not a psychic that can know what you feel by just touching you. I wish I was so that, I could know what goes inside your mind. These past few months, this relationship seems like a guessing game. You would just get mad without any reason and I would have no idea. Sometimes you wouldn’t want to talk to me. Am I an inanimate object to you? Do I really exist in your world? Sometimes I wonder if one day I would just disappear, would you notice. I bet you won’t.
My friends ask me why do I still stay in this relationship and I was not shocked to know that there is not any logical reason for me to stay. The only reason I could give them is because I love you. But all things have their limitations; my heart and mind are already tired. They could not take it anymore. They know this is not their worth. I can’t understand why you are treating me this way. If you don’t want this relationship, then why wouldn’t you tell? Your friends tell me to hold on. They tell me you love me but I can’t feel it. I can’t even feel I was important. The only thing important for you is yourself. You wouldn’t even think of what I feel or of what others feel. I can’t believe I was able to love someone like you.
While inside our relationship, I felt worthless. You never even once told me you love me nor made me feel like you really love me. Like what I said, all have their limitations. And I met mine. I could no longer stay in this relationship. I’m tired of waiting for you. I always wish then that in time you would change but I was wrong. It is impossible for your case. I still love you but I also love myself. I need to free myself of this relationship or I might lose my self-respect.