I loved him since childhood. Even though, many argues that a child still doesn’t know how to love. But I’m sure I loved him since. I may not know then but I know that I already have these weird feelings inside of me. My anticipation while I’m waiting for him to come over and ask me to play with him… waiting and looking out by my window sill for a boy. Surely, a frown will be evident on my plain face every minute he fails to come and a smile will replace it the moment he shows up.
We shared almost everything, even secrets. I know his dreams and he knows mine. Now, those dreams may be childish but before they mean everything to us… to our innocent and pure hearts.

People change as they grow. We can’t keep them in a box and make ourselves believe that they will stay. He needs to grow, so are you. And from that point, you begin to grow… apart. You begin to realize that you’re slipping away from each other. You tried to hold tighter but it seems that the more you tighten the grip, the more it slips. So you decided to let go, but you forgot to cut the string that connects your heart to his. And so time will pass and “moving on” may still be foreign. But someone else will show up, with the love you need. You begin to love again like the way you loved the first one. But while inside the relationship, you begin to wander around looking for something that is missing and lacking. But then, you can’t find it so you stopped. Believing that being content is better than aiming for more. You stayed and stayed. And one night, your friends will come and talk about love. You got drunk and suddenly words of regrets will come out of your intoxicated soul. For the first time, you were never afraid to cry. You cried.

And then the next day, you realized that your life is mundane. You want to get out… of everything that makes you ordinary and you remembered him. That same day, you decided to be single. Being single will make you more independent. You will try not to depend on anybody from that day. But still memories of childhood will bother you. You decided to travel.

You left everything from where you are from. You’ll start from scratch. Family and friends can’t understand you but somewhere inside of you, you believe that it is the right thing to do. So you left.

Along the way, you’ll meet people. Learn things from them and leave with added wisdom. You learned that money can be earned and having friends is a lot better. Time to time, you check yourself and was happy that bit by bit you’re beginning to build yourself. And after a long trip to self- fulfillment, you returned to where you began and told them of what had happened. Even though, you know that they are not interested. You still told them what you had learned.

You almost forgot him but you still love him. But you already know that you can live without him. And things began to change, you already see yourself growing on what you do.

And he will return, ready to admit the feelings he had to a girl he still loves. In the long years of looking for each other, both of you found yourselves and was both ready to face life together.