I feel bad. I’m supposed to be happy for my friend that she’s leaving our job because I know it’s not the best place to grow career wise. I am truly happy for her. We’re close friends and I’m glad for her. But part of me asks, “What about me? Don’t I deserve to have more than this?”. My heart is crushed. I feel so guilty to have these thoughts. I desperately wants to leave also but I can’t go anywhere. I can’t leave this job without the assurance that I can jump to the next one immediately. Being financially independent sucks. I can’t escape this job even if I want to.
When people tell me how good I am and how efficient I am and then suddenly ask me, “why are still sticking at this job?” I get pissed not at the person who’s asking but to me who’s actually too stupid to stay here. =(
My arms, my butt and my legs hurt a lot. I tried Rip 60 yesterday and it was interesting, fun and sweaty. Yesterday, it already hurt but today was more excruciating. My every move reminded of me of the pain caused by the strenuous exercise yesterday. But I’m looking forward again for my next session. I know it would be fun again. Woot! Woot! (^_^)
Just this week, I decided to write again. Plot is still simmering. Hoping to have a nice story ahead. I’m not sure I even have the talent to put up a sensible story but there’s nothing wrong with trying right?
Watch out for my story! I’ll try to give you a good one.
Three days before my birthday and I find myself crying in front of my work computer at around 7 in the morning. I just read the post of my friend in his Facebook account, saying goodbye to his dad who recently died. Somehow, I just cried. Not because of his grief alone but because of my own sadness. I didn’t know when it started. I wasn’t looking forward for my birthday for the first time. This is really wrong.
Varekai was indeed a great show. One minute you’re laughing your heart out and the next minute you’re taken aback by the flying acts.
The strength of the show is the flying/aerial acts, they are simply amazing. Super precise yet graceful. Though the floor acts are festive in color most of the time, it is not as stable as it should be. Yet it still gives enjoyment to those who are watching. One of my favorite acts is the Flight of Icarus, I was like a child, wide eyed and so amazed by the skill and talent of the actor doing it. It definitely looked difficult but yet he done it so beautifully. My other favorite is the finale, which made want to hold my heart, it might drop anytime. The stunts were dangerous but I couldn’t sense any hesitation from the performers. It made the whole show worth to watch. People were literally at the edge of their seats. On a lighter note, I love the two comedians who initially interacted with the crowd. I really enjoyed their acts, I was laughing my heart out because they are simply funny. Up to end, they were very consistent with their characters. Love it! Overall, the show is great and I would want to watch it again. =)